Random Theories and Rantings

My brain is racing around like a rat in a cage. Its got all this energy but no place to go and then it collapses for a while and just pants in the corner. This job searching thing sucks in a way I totally forgot about. There you are one day, cruising along in a job you like (and you're good at) and then these insane people turn you out like a hobo who hasn't paid up at a cheap motel. Its strange. It probably doesn't help that I'm listening to music that is, well depressing. Today I've got this Wilco CD I just bought (Being There). Its really good but it sets this mood like, why have long term goals or care or do anything but sit around in your underwear drinking beer? Not that I'm participating in that activity, just that's the way the music makes you feel.

Every so often I find myself staring at the wall and swaying to the music. Its putting me in a strange trance.

Alright I have to close this because I'm drifting into paint, into the carpet fibers. Its like all the molecules in me have decided to stop holding hands and are all letting go. Drifting out and about into the room, directed by the current coming from the air conditioner vent.